Life is always cruel for me... No matter what i have done, things will never come back as what i had expected it to be...
All the effort that i had put on had just washed away just like you wrote words on the sand and lastly the wave just swept it away in a few seconds...

What is the use of our life on this earth...???
Is it a test for us to go through hard and easy life on earth???
OR is it for us to feel the cruelty and difficulty of life on earth...
I hardly to understand what's our purpose on this so called lovely planet EARTH...

Time passes by without any mercy and there's no return when we had taken an action...
Certain scars that we sustain it during our life might heal BUT some scars won't heal at all and it will remain in our memories forever...

But i do know that this scars i had this year will remain forever and ever...
It hurts me terribly... When i heard the news, it feels like a thousand arrows just hit and pierce directly to my heart... I hardly to describe how it really hurts... But what i know, at that particular moment it hurts till my tears almost rolled down my cheeks...
I just trying to remain cool and try to stop my tears from rolling down as i was on duty for a Hindu Temple opening ceremony...

Next thing that appear in my mind are all those unsolved questions for me. Many questions just pop up on my mind... and i couldn't find any answer for it... My brain feels the pressure and at times i feel just to let go everything by an easy way out that is 'commit suicide'...

I'm just being silly to think of taking a shortcut to ends all this problems that i had... But i kept myself strong and trying to look at the positive path of life... I tried telling lies to myself just for me to feel better, but actually it doesn't work at all... Whenever i was alone, i started to have those flashback where those hurts memories just pop up... For the pass few days i tortured my body terribly, i slept few hours at very late night, eat less than normal, shout out loud whenever i'm alone, hit my fist on the wall and etc...

I tried to be normal in front of my family members, but my brother Alex sensed it...
He tried to ask me again and again but i just replied to him there's nothing happened to me and i'm fine (But actually i'm not)...
But last night, i guess he finds out what is my problem was and he just sent an sms to comfort me and give morally support... Thank you very much bro, really appreciate it although i know what a person might said when someone's facing the same problem as mine...

To everyone who are curious of me cutting super short hair this time is because, i hope that i can start my life all over again.. a brand new life of Lee Keat Heng...
Although the problems i had still haunted me, I'll try to be strong...
Anyway, looking to the bright side of life...
I really hope and can do well in upcoming exams...

Wish me luck guys and gals...